I broke myself

April 3, 2007 at 3:17 pm (Uncategorized)

Ok, i thought i posted this a long time ago…it has now been a month since i broke my ankle and leg… 

Wow, what a last 9 days it has been.

Last Tuesday, I was leaving a meeting and heading back to the church, when i slipped on the ice and broke my leg and ankle.  i knew it was broken from the get go, i heard it as i went down.  so, i was taken to the ER by ambulance, where after 90 minutes they told me i would need surgery.  I was then taken by ambulance to a hospital an hour away, and then once there, transferred to another hospital for surgery and an overnight stay.

I broke the outside bone of my leg, near the bottom, and a bone in my ankle.  In surgery, they put in a metal plate and 6 screws into my leg, and 2 screws and a pin into the inside of my ankle. 

I hate this.  I was home at my mom’s for a few days recovering, then went back to my place with my grandma.  I met with my doctor again yesterday, and he recommended that I don’t go back to work for another week.  So, I am back at my mom’s, where i don’t have to deal with stairs.  I got a walking boot yesterday, which is much heavier than the splint I had on, and I have been in quite a bit of pain.  I am hoping I get used to it soon!

Prayers for healing would be much appreciated.  As prayers for where I am supposed to be going in my life.  That is a whole other area of confusion for me right now.

Thanks, i will be back soon!


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i know!

February 26, 2007 at 6:25 pm (Uncategorized)

I know, it has been forever!!!  0k, so here is a rundown

job:  not so sure if i like it.  actually, trying to look for a new one.  again.  for a couple of reasons.  one.  i am having a very hard time with my supervisior, and i feel increasingly anxious in going to work everyday.  two.  i would kind of like just a regular 8-5 job.  three.  i am not sure i feel called to ministry in a professional capacity anymore.  God and I talked the whole way back to town today from home.  well, actually God listened, and i told him a lot of stuff.  Yeah, so thats wierd, not to know what I am supposed to do or be.

family:  We has a great weekend.  this weekend was the sis’s last weekend home before she packs up her car and heads to FL.  I don’t want her to go!  it was hard, not knowing when i will see her again.

life:  we had a big snowstorm this weekend.  aka, i got snowed in, and didn’t make it back for church.  oh, and i had part one of a root canal on Friday.  I am starting to think he didn’t seal it up very good, because it hurts like none other!

so here is a thought for the day:

There are two types of people in this world.  Ones who always think they will be remembered, and those who think no one will remember them.  I am the latter.  In fact, I am always extremely flattered when someone from my past remembers me.  Which are you?

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Psalm 5

February 2, 2007 at 1:43 pm (Uncategorized)

This morning, I read Psalm 5.  Then I read it in my Message Bible.  Here it is:

Psalm 5

A David Psalm

 1-3 Listen, God! Please, pay attention! Can you make sense of these ramblings, my groans and cries? King-God, I need your help.
   Every morning
      you’ll hear me at it again.
   Every morning
      I lay out the pieces of my life
      on your altar
      and watch for fire to descend.

 4-6 You don’t socialize with Wicked,
      or invite Evil over as your houseguest.
   Hot-Air-Boaster collapses in front of you;
      you shake your head over Mischief-Maker.
   God destroys Lie-Speaker;
      Blood-Thirsty and Truth-Bender disgust you.

 7-8 And here I am, your invited guest—
      it’s incredible!
   I enter your house; here I am,
      prostrate in your inner sanctum,
   Waiting for directions
      to get me safely through enemy lines.

 9-10 Every word they speak is a land mine;
      their lungs breathe out poison gas.
   Their throats are gaping graves,
      their tongues slick as mudslides.
   Pile on the guilt, God!
      Let their so-called wisdom wreck them.
   Kick them out! They’ve had their chance.

 11-12 But you’ll welcome us with open arms
      when we run for cover to you.
   Let the party last all night!
      Stand guard over our celebration.
   You are famous, God, for welcoming God-seekers,
      for decking us out in delight.

and shoot…i ran out of time to write about this!  but i have lots of thoughts.  but i have to go to my work-mandated counseling now…not looking forward to this!


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I’m Baaaack!

January 5, 2007 at 1:19 pm (Uncategorized)

Yeah, thats right, drumroll please, CBQ has returned! it has been a long 6 weeks almost since i have blogged.  let me give you the best update I can.

 Work:  It has been interesting to say the least.  More and more i realize how much i love the community I live in, and I love the youth that I work with.  I have incredible support from the congregation, parents, and youth.  and that makes me very happy.  However, if i could get rid of my coworkers that would be great.  They have accused me of using my work computer to look at porn and gambling websites.  for those of you who know me in real life, not me!  The sites they mentioned were blogs I read for enjoyment.  but, they don’t understand that, because they don’t really get the internet thing.  So, they have gone to the church council and have told them that I have questionable character issues that should be figured out.  The council has decided that I need to attend counseling, which the church will pay for.  I think it is great!  I love counseling, and I don’t have to pay for it!  i am trying my best to see as much humor in the situation as possible.  I know that God knows the person  I am at heart, and I rest on that.   Our pastor is starting to annouce this week that he is leaving after being with the congregation for nearly 18 years.  It is probably terrible, but i am pretty happy about it.  Like i explained to a friend of mine.  If he was just my pastor, I would probably love him.  But as a co worker, I just can’t take it.  So now, i will still have to deal with my other co worker, but i won’t feel like i am going to get double-teamed all the time.  So I have a feeling this next year will be full of transitions and new expirences in the work arena.

 Family- good good, like always.  We had a great Christmas.  Especially Christmas eve.  My brother, sister, mom and me.  and my grandma was there for awhile too.  we drank way too much, played this game called apples to apples for hours, and laughed so hard my stomach still hurt the next day.   it was great.  Christmas day I played with my cousins all day, and it was a total hoot!

 Life- I have friends!  it is great.  The Bride got married last weekend, and her wedding was so much fun.  there ended up being a huge snowstorm so the wedding dance had to be cancelled, which was a major bummer. I was there to do whatever they told me too, though a few of the bridesmaids really wanted me to be part of their crew.  I just moved to town too late to meet the Bride and be in the wedding, according to the maid of honor!  it was a blast.

The boyfriend-oy.  I feel like we have been fighting a lot, though he doesn’t really agree.  Due to a lot of situations coming together all at once, he wasn’t able to come see me over Christmas break.  So we are just frusterated with a 6 hour apart life.  But it looks like it is going to be this way for at least another year. yuck.

I promise, I am going to be blogging more.  Life just kind of hit me like a Mack truck.  Ok, I have got to catch up on my blog reading.  it has been a long time since i have done that too!


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Happy Thanksgiving!

November 25, 2006 at 10:34 am (Uncategorized)

Ok, so it is two days after thanksgiving, but you get the point! 

Thanksgiving here was good.  Went to my grandma’s, seriously stuffed myself, played with my cousins pretty hardcore, did the teeter totter with my aunt (yeah, 2 grown women on the teeter totter, pretty funny!) ate some more, played some games.  good times were had by all.  my cousins, ages 3 and 2 are pretty stinkin hi-larious, so we had a good time!

 Yesterday, I recieved the gift of staying in my pjs til almost 4 pm.  it was pretty great!  I don’t get to sleep in and be lazy very often, so it was good to do that.

Last night i went out with my dad and his wife, today I am hangin out with my mom if she wants to.  She seemed kind of tired when she left to go have brunch with a friend.

I hope you had a happy and healthy thanksgiving!

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November 22, 2006 at 12:17 pm (Uncategorized)

Today is my grandma’s birthday.  I know she doesn’t read this, because she doesn’t have or know how to work a computer.  My grandma is one of my heros in life.  She is a fantastic example to me of faith, and unconditional love.  Because for each one of her grandchildren, we can do no wrong.

My grandma uses great superlatives.  The words wonderful, fabulous, and outstanding are words she uses to describe what most would consider to be the everyday mundane.   She inspires me to look at life in that way and to enjoy every minute.

My grandma gives great hugs, and is always really excited to see me.  She makes me feel good about myself!

She makes beautiful quilts, and says things that are so funny, she just cracks me up!

and she can burp!

These are just a few things I love about that woman!  Love you Grandma!

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I have friends!!!!!!

November 21, 2006 at 12:11 pm (Uncategorized)

I don’t know if you realize quite how exciting that is for me.  I didn’t have friends when i lived in my last place.  Last night, 2 of my friends and i went out for hot chocolate and girl talk after a youth event.  ooh, now i get to think of fun nicknames for them…

 The bride:  obviously, she is getting married in about a month.  we became fast friends and have a ton in common.  She is the one who makes my hair look fabulous. 

 GI Jane:  yeah, i am going to call her this just because she is a military chick, but she is pretty much not like GI Jane.

so, at hot chocolate, we talked about the upcoming wedding and marriage of the bride, the new man in the life of GI Jane, and then my issues at church came up.  They were both so good and encouraging.  I was nervous about talking to them about it.  Ok, well, not so much the bride, but with GI Jane.  she is really close to one of my co workers who is giving me a hard time.  but she was really supportive too.  and i know i can trust her to keep it to herself.

It is exciting to have friends. I have been working really long hours the last couple of weeks, so i am looking forward to having an evening at home tonight.  i will proabbly clean some, and watch some tv.  its going to be good.

I am getting a lot of Christmas shopping done too!  I have my brother, sister, my dad’s wife, my best friend from  HS all finished.  and i know what i want to get my mom.  Now i just have to figure out what to get my dad and the boyfriend…any ideas???

Hope you are having a great day!

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My Purse

November 20, 2006 at 12:21 pm (Uncategorized)

So, I saw this post somewhere else and thought it would be fun to do too!  So, what are the items I always have in my purse:

  • my billfold
  • lip gloss, probably Mary Kay
  • anti bacterial lotion, right now in brown sugar and fig
  • a book or my knitting
  • sunglasses
  • fem hygiene products
  • cell phone
  • reciepts

Right now in my purse:

  • a software CD for work

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Fresh Start

November 17, 2006 at 12:22 am (Uncategorized)

Well, here it is, the new blog.  It is going to take me awhile to get used to this new format, since i am a newbie at WordPress.  so, if you have any suggestions, i would be more than willing to take them!

So, why did i leave my old blog behind?  Too many people that I actually know in real life read it.  and guess what, i needed a place to vent.  especially after today. and i just ethically couldn’t do that where i knew people would see it.  So, its time for a fresh start.

I was told today that I basically can’t live my life the way I want to.  That because of my job, I shouldn’t read cosmo magazine, or go out for a drink with my friends.  and it is all swimming in my head.  because i know who I am.  I know I love Jesus more than anything, and that I have not compromised myself or my faith in any way.

 I know part of it is generational.  I think differently.  I know part of it has to do with trust.  I haven’t always given people a reason to trust me.  Though that wasn’t intentional, it has happened. and part of it has to do what has happened in the past, before i was even around.  But I am heartbroken to think that I may be giving up my calling because to other people it doesn’t match up with my life.  I don’t think i want to live in a fish bowl anymore. 

 So again, I am at a cross roads.  and part of this blog will be figuring out that cross roads.  I hope you will pray for me and join me on my journey.


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