Family Tree

September 22, 2008 at 9:56 pm (family, reflections) (, )

I have been thinking, and talking about my grandfathers a lot lately. 

My maternal grandfather, Charles (aka Charlie or Chuck) died just 3 weeks after my parents were married.  He was 46.  I never knew him, obviously, but i have heard so many stories about him, some good, some bad.  He was a charasmatic person, who loved the outdoors, loved to have a good time, and loved to play the guitar and sing.

My paternal grandfather, Vernon, died when I was 10, suddenly of a stroke.  My memories of him include the fact that he always brought us candy, seeing him taking off his back brace when we spent the night, and his fabulous laugh.  He too loved the outdoors, could talk to anyone, and was very much a “people person.”

Do you ever have someone in your life that you don’t know what they are thinking?  Or have you lost someone and wondered what they would think about situations that arise after they are gone?

I have had several conversations about these two men this last week.  And, I can’t help but wonder, would they be proud of me?  What would they say about my choices, my life?  How would things be different if they lived longer?

It is possible to miss someone you have never known, or not known very well.  It helps me to remember to cherish the time I have with those that are around me now.


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World Domination can’t be far away–Twisted Tulip Socks

September 18, 2008 at 3:19 pm (family, things I love) ()

I am proud of a lot of my knitting projects.  But really, right now these are busting my buttons.  They are really the first cable project, and first patterned sock project that i have done.  And i could not be more pleased with how they turned out.  These are the Twisted Tulip Socks from the Interweave Knits Summer 2008.  They are knit in Pagewood Farms Superwash Merino, Handpainted sock yarn, colorway Bird of Paradise.

My sister is the recipent of these beauties, and I am hoping she will take a picture wearing them and send it to me!

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Last Weekend’s Project

September 4, 2008 at 2:43 pm (family, Life) (, , )

This was last weekend’s project:




As many know, i grew up on a dairy farm, and now my dad and brother are “hobby” farmers, with about 100 head of beef cows.  Well, last weekend they were out of town, and my brother and his girlfriend needed someone to bottle feed this cutie.  its mom wouldn’t feed him, so they were bottle feeding him.  So, last weekend, he was my project.  Fun for about 2 seconds, but i was glad when monday rolled around and I didn’t have to be a farmer anymore.

Then on Tuesday, Henry got a friend:

Henry and Friend

Henry and Friend

This one is being bottle fed too.  I am really glad i am not a farmer this weekend!  Fun to look at, but I would rather just go pet them once and awhile!

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First Day of School

September 3, 2008 at 8:30 pm (family, reflections) (, , , )

Yesterday was the first day of school here in MN.  Or if you are my cousin, a kindergartener, today was his first day of school, because the teacher split up the class for the first two days.  So today in my email I had pictures of my cousins, one who started preschool yesterday, and one who started kindergarten today, on their first days of school.

I loved school.  it was something that most of the time i was really good at, and there is something about the beginning of a new school year that is, still, to me more momentous than the first of January.

There was all that preparation leading up to the first day.  The school supplies…oh I love school supplies!  I tease my mom that the reason she is a teacher is because she loves school supplies so much.   But there are the new crayons, new bottles of glue that aren’t gunked up yet, the shiny new paper, all neat and organized for the first day.  It won’t stay that way for long, but it is that way for the first day.

The choosing of the outfit.  I don’t know if this is a big deal for boys, but it is for girls.  You want to look good, but not look like you spent too much time choosing your outfit, & you want to wear your brand new shoes. (and yes, i thought about all this, even as an elementary schooler.)

And you would get to see your friends.  I was a country kid, and didn’t get to spend all summer with my friends.  In fact, my memories of summer were spending more time with my brother and sister or friends of the family rather than friends from school.    and you would get to the first day, and compare and compliment those carefully planned outfits, and try and figure out what kind of seating arrangements the teachers were going to give you.

My most vivid first day of school memory is probably the first day of college orientation actually.  My parents and I loaded up our van full of my stuff…really full.  I don’t think i knew what an 8×10 dorm room would actually fit.  We were headed westward.  I remember waking up in that hotel room in Bellvue, WA listening to my parents talk about me when they though i was still sleeping.  They were both choked up, and I cried silent tears while i listened.  As we drove to campus, I remember the flip flopping my stomach was doing of nervousness, excitement, scaredness, lonliness and homesickness all combined.  I had lived on the same land since i was a baby…I wouldn’t see my family til December, and what the hell was I thinking?  But it was so exciting moving into my room.  And my mom, as she has done in all the places i have moved since, made my bed before leaving, and my dad hid money in my room for me to find later.   I cried when they left, and really for quite a few nights after.  and when ever i got lonely, i would pull out the journal my mom wrote for me my last year at home.  I made incredible friends, and learned more about myself than i ever thought i would.

But it was one of the best decisions of my life.  and even though i am not directly using my education at this time, I wouldn’t trade the expirences and the friends i made in my freshman year or the years after.

Education often doesn’t make us smarter, it shapes us as people.  Thank Goodness for the First day of school.

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Happiest Moment of the Day

November 15, 2007 at 10:55 pm (family, Life, Work) (, , )

So, my mom and have lately done this thing where we write down the happiest moment of our day.  She is much better at it than i am.

These things can be anything.  Examples from both of us include:

  • Getting my house clean
  • feeling a sense of accomplishment about a task
  • Getting an owl pellet (seriously, i have never seen anyone so excited about what is essentially owl puke)
  • a good day at work
  • etc etc

So the happiest moment of my day…being able to give a bouquet of flowers to a customer just because, no strings attached.  she was amazed.  and i think it probably brightened her day too.  nothing better.

What is the happiest moment to your day?

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I am gonna call you…

October 5, 2007 at 10:39 am (family, Humorous, things I love) (, , )

My grandma had my cousins for the last couple of days.  J is 4, I is 3.  they are hilarious.  I spent the day with them yesterday.  somehow, J and i got into this game where we were going to call each other things, it went something like this.

me: I am gonna call you why

J: i am gonna call you a cat

me: i am going to call you a camel

J: i am gonna call you a car

me: i am gonna call you a wheel

(ok, so you get the point…this went on for a looong time  a few of my favorites though, from his side)

I am gonna call you post office!

I am gonna call you stoplight!

I am gonna call you some groceries!

and my favorite:

I am gonna call you Periwinkle!!!

could not stop laughing…what 4 year old boy knows and uses the word Periwinkle?  my cousin does apparently, and it cracked me up!!!

ahh, out of the mouths of babes!

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Thanks Mom!

September 18, 2007 at 6:49 am (family, Humorous)

This conversation happened this morning…

Mom:  happy birthday, i love you!

Me: Thanks!

Mom: welcome to the downside to 30.

Me: wow, thanks…

Mom:  i was going to write it on your note for this morning, but thought that would be mean, so I thought i would just tell you.

Me: yeah, because that makes it so much better!

Thanks mom for that!

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Is it better?

June 8, 2007 at 11:55 pm (family, Humorous, Life, reflections, relating my life to "Friends")

I need to start seeing that yes, things are getting better.  at least they have to be.  maybe they aren’t.  anyway, my last entry was really depressing, so I am trying to be more upbeat this time. So, an update.

  • Antidepressants:  I got some!  the dr. wants to see me again in 2 weeks, just to see how they are working for me.  on top of the depression, I have been having some anxiety issues (example:  Sunday night, I couldn’t fall asleep until 4 am) so he gave me something to take as needed for that.
  • Job stuff:  Ok, not gotten too far on that.  but, a new opportunity has arisen at a bank in town, where I know lots of people and so I am getting my resume in there.
  • Isolation: I am doing better!  I talked to my sister today, emailed my friend D a few days ago, and talked to E today, and I will probably see her tomorrow night since she is in town.  all good things.
  • God and Me:  hmm.  well, I did go to church.  and the NT reading was from Romans talking about how tough times build character and hope.  I felt like a 4 year old, becuase I really just wanted to stick my fingers in my ears and not listen to it.  Not quite ready for that yet. but i was there.
  • The Ross to my Rachel: You can read about that here if you don’t know what I am talking about.  Well, I still haven’t heard from him.  and I said when it all went down that I wouldn’t contact him, he had to contact me.  but guess what.  a girl needs closure.  so, i emailed him tonight, heart wrenching, i bawled my eyes out.  He of course, doesn’t need to know that.  I just put things so much better in writing than I ever could on the phone.  I am assuming that he is over it all, but i just needed to know for sure…we shall see what happens.
  • Oh, and just a funny story.  My mom and grandma were rummage saleing today.  My grandma says, “Wow, look at these really pretty plates, aren’t they nice?  Who do we know that has plates like these?” My mom looks at her, deadpan, “you do.”  I missed it, but it still makes me giggle!

So, overall, just another boring week in my life!!! oh, and a quick PT update: I am now standing on one foot, on foam, and throwing a 4 pound ball at a trampoline and catching it.  They apparently didn’t get the memo that I am ATHLETICALLY CHALLENGED. and yes, i am also spelling challenged.  and now, at nearly 1 am it is time to drag my very tired and aching body back to bed.  Good Night!

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Mama Mia!

May 17, 2007 at 6:22 pm (family, Humorous)

You Are Totally Like Your Mom

You and your mom are practically clones.
You think alike, and you even seem to read each other’s minds.
You’re definitely you’re mother’s child… and that’s just fine with you.

Are You Like Your Mom?

Really, I could have told you the answer to this.  The other day we were shopping in Wal-mart, and said at the exact same time, “we should buy a wrench.”  WHO SAYS THAT NORMALLY?!?!? We had talked about borrowing one from my brother a couple of days ago…So strange.  And me living in the same house with her, just compounds the same-ness. But i love her!  I have to, I am just like her!

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Dear Mom,

May 13, 2007 at 10:18 am (family)

Happy Mother’s Day.  Do you realize this is your 25th year of mother’s day?  Well, unless you count when you were pregnant with me, then it would be 26.  I know there is no way I can sum up 25 years.  Thanks for being such an amazing mother.

Thanks for being such a good sport about things.  You always make me laugh, if it is teaching you how to text message, or arguing about the color of my bedroom. (its GRAY) I am so thankful that in you I not only have a mom, but a best friend and an inspiration.

Thank you for being here for me during one of the toughest seasons in my life.  I am hoping it is going to wrap up soon, but I appreciate your support more than I can say.

You have three children with very different personalities, and you have managed to understand us all extremely well, and spend an amazing amount of time explaining one of us to the other.

Happy Mother’s Day.  I love you!

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