A sad day
Well, I started at Wal-mart today. its a job, good. and actually, it will be pretty stress free i think. but i am still a little wary about working somewhere where I will need to do a cheer.
Had kind of a tough emotional day. First, i was feeling really kind of cruddy about myself. The training drove me crazy, becuase it was really slow moving, and i felt like most of it was common sense. I was getting down on myself about not having an acutal career. I mean, i guess I feel like at 25, I should at the very least be using my degree. I feel like my life has come to a standstill. and I hate that. a lot. I like to have a plan. I hate that i don’t have one. I hate that I am not 100% yet and there fore can’t look for another job. So i am driving home, and then my car craps out on me about a mile from home. all of a sudden, the speedometer started going down, and it won’t go above 45 mph. and, it sounds like crap. so, into the shop it goes, but probably not til thursday. frusterating.
I got home, my dad came over to help me with the car, i cried it out and vented with my mom. I also don’t think it helps that i ran out of my anti depressants. and, i don’t have insurance right now, so i have to try and get an appointment up at the reservation. and i don’t know what my work schedule looks like so i can’t do that yet. so that is my vent for the day!
now, i am thinking about going to bed and reading. i am tired and worn out, and all i did was sit all day. and oh goody, i get to do the same thing tomorrow.
Peace!
